Liam Payne’s sister Ruth shares emotional 18 months tribute

Liam Payne’s sister Ruth Gibbins reflected on the loss of her brother 18 months after his death.

Payne untimely passed in age of 31 in Argentina after fatally falling of the balcony of his hotel room.

Through her Instagram account, she wrote a heart-wrenching letter to her brother.

"18 months without you, it feels impossible to be a sentence, yet here we are," she began. “Healing is such a tricky thing to navigate.”

Talking about how things have changed since the incident, she added, “I can't return to who I was before, because grief has changed my outlook that I could never be that person again, but then I get sad Liam will never know me who appeared after his death.”

“The main part of me is so homesick to go back to my before life,” she wrote.

Gibbins further said that if given the choice between returning to the life where her brother was still alive or solving all the problems in the world forever, “I’d always choose to go back to my life where my brother existed."

The Polaroid singer’s sister then shared that her brother "taught me so much in life, but he didn't teach me how to live without him and that's a lesson I'm really struggling to get to grips with."

She continued her emotional tribute expressing that she feels her brother’s presence around her, especially in recent weeks.

Gibbins wrote that she misses him more than her heart can handle and that he should still be here with the family.

His sister concluded the post with, "I know you're willing us to live, I hope you can see all we're doing in your spirit."

This is not the first time Gibbins has expressed her sorrow. She along with her parents and sister have been candid about their struggles in the wake of Payne’s death.

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