Selena Gomez opens up about wedding, struggles to embrace life’s joy

Selena Gomez has revealed that she struggled to fully enjoy her wedding last month, citing a long-standing difficulty in accepting life’s joyful moments.

Speaking at Fortune’s Most Powerful Women conference in Washington, D.C., on Wednesday, Oct. 15, the 33-year-old singer and Rare Beauty founder discussed her tendency to expect misfortune even during happy times. 

Journalist Ellie Austin referenced Gomez’s previous comment about feeling undeserving of being “in the room,” noting that her beauty brand is now valued at over $2 billion.

“I would say that’s my biggest conflict sometimes when wonderful things happen,” Gomez said. “I got married and then I was sobbing because I was like, ‘I’m gonna die the next day.’ I just think that’s a little life thing.”

The Only Murders in the Building star explained that she often becomes “wrapped up” in worry rather than fully savoring accomplishments, a mindset that has followed her personal and professional milestones. 

“Something great happens in my life, I expect something bad to happen,” she said. “Instead of being present and saying, ‘Okay, wow, we’ve done a great thing,’ I’m always thinking, ‘This could all go away tomorrow.’”

Gomez married music producer Benny Blanco, 37, on Sept. 27 in California, two years after they began dating. The star-studded ceremony included Taylor Swift, Steve Martin, Martin Short, Paul Rudd, Cara Delevingne, Ed Sheeran and SZA.

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