Chris Appleton opens up about his suicide attempt

Celebrity hairstylist Chris Appleton sat down for an interview on Jay Shetty's On Purpose podcast where he opened up about a tragic time in his life.

On the same day as the release of his debut book, Your Roots Don't Define You, he said that he felt that his sexuality would have been too much to bear for his children, “I felt like it would be better for them to have a dad that was dead than a dad that was ***. It's not something I've ever spoken about.”

He shares both his children, Billy, 22, and daughter Kitty-blu, 20 with ex-wife Katie Katon.

She had been the first one he had revealed the truth to, “Because I loved her, I really loved her, and I didn't want to be ***. I didn't want to be different,"

“But the hardest part was telling my kids,” the UK native admitted, “I feel ready to talk to people because I feel like, hopefully it will help someone else that's going through a difficult time.”

“I felt like it was like a cancer. I wanted to clear it out of me,” Appleton admitted.

He further explained, “All of a sudden, I just felt like I'd just messed their life up, and I felt like I'd failed as a dad because my job was to protect them and if anyone ever hurt them, I would protect them. But I was the one [who] hurt them, and I couldn't understand that.”

About the moment he attempted to take his life, the hairstylist recalled, “I brought a bottle of alcohol and I checked myself into a hotel, and the whole time I had a picture of the kids. It was like this computer case it had and them smiling on it. They wrote a message on it. It was silly, it was just a little computer case, but I was just holding it the whole time. I closed my eyes and I just thought, this is it. This is it. I won't hurt anyone anymore... and maybe I'll stop hurting too.”

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