Influencer Christine Tran Ferguson mourns loss of 15-month-old son

Christine Tran Ferguson lost her son over a year after his arrival.

Taking to Instagram on Wednesday, the Tour de Lust influencer revealed that her son Asher died following a fight "for his life in the ICU" two weeks ago.

"My heart is utterly broken and shattered into a million pieces," she wrote alongside a carousel of pictures. "I will never understand why, nothing makes sense, I'm still in shock, I just want to wake up from this unimaginable nightmare and have you back in my arms. Why is this happening to us, why Asher?? You did not deserve any of this."

Though she did not reveal the 15-month-old’s cause of death, Christine noted Asher’s passing was "the hardest experience mommy and daddy has ever had to endure."

"Everyday has been torture without you, this pain is unbearable," said Christine, who often shared pictures of her family life with Asher. "I still feel like you're going to reappear but our home is so quiet and empty without you. Part of me has died with you. I'm so heartbroken, with no idea how to live a life without you."

The content creator described him as the "smartest & happiest little boy I've ever known" who "made our family complete," recalling the little memories and traits of Asher.

"I'm so sorry you had to go through this!!" she continued. "…I miss running my hands through all your hair, biting your chubby little feet, but most of all I ache for your hugs and kisses so much!! I pray I get to see you in my dreams every night. I just want you back so badly, but you're never coming home and it's killing me."

"I see all the messages and even though I'm not able to get through them all right now I know how loved Asher was by all of you," Christine concluded her message.

"Thank you for all the overwhelming love and support. He brought us all so much joy and happiness everyday. I just ask for privacy during this difficult time as we're still in shock and still have no answers to this unbearable nightmare."