Lily Allen touches upon her Adderall addiction: 'It made me invincible'

Lily Allen is looking back at her old self.

In a recent podcast with The Recovery, the singer opened up about the early stages of her drug addiction. Lily revealed she started taking drugs because she suffered from a typical case of low self-esteem.

"I started getting my value from attention of others and that is something that has played out until relatively recently really," she said.

The singer who then weighed 196 lbs started taking a weight reduction drug 'Adderall' to keep herself fit.

"So, I started taking this drug called Adderall, which is like speed, to lose weight. And then I got addicted to this drug because it made me invincible and I could work really long hours and be all the different people that I was required to be at the time," she revealed.

The addiction later jeopardized Lily's first marriage where she cheated on her husband multiple times. The Somewhere Only We Know singer had been in a dark place for another four years.

Now, as she is working to progress towards sobriety, she is happy the bad times are behind her.

"I'm in the process of breaking that cycle. I felt so guilty about neglecting my kids in those early years of their life and having to go off on tour and misbehave in the way that I was. I really have a great relationship with my kids now," she said. "I'm there to pick them up at the school gates whenever I can be. I'm dropping them off in the morning, and I'll make them dinner, and they'll come to me when they've got problems, and that's golden to me."

The singer, who remarried in September, says her husband David Harbour is himself sober and always tries to keep her strong.

"I'm in a really happy and healthy relationship. He's sober, has been sober for 20 years now," she added. "We're thinking about what we're going to do with the rest of our lives... I don't have as much as I had then in terms of success and wealth, but I have success and health in my mind, which is more valuable I think."